Entries for October, 2008

October 13th, 2008

When the Time is not right

When the time is not right, " God says go "Slow"
What a catastrophe it would be if God answers prayers at a snap of our fingers
Do you know what would happen? God would become our servant, not our master.
Suddenly, God will be working for you instead of you working for him.
Remember, God's delay is not God's denials.
God's timing is perfect; patience is what we need in prayers.

When you're not right, God says "Grow"
The selfish person has to grow in unselfishness
The cautious person must grow in courage
The timid person must grow in confidence
The dominating person must grow in sensitivity
The critical must grow in tolerance
The negative person must grow in positive attitude
The pleasure seeking must grow in compassion

When everything is right, God says "Go"
The miracles happen!
The doors to our dreams suddenly swings open
And there stands God saying Go!
Posted by nothere at 05:51 PM | HIT ME HARD!

October 31st, 2008

i cant believe i just said that to him!

Okay, so right now, i have heavy lids and i really just wanna lay on my bed. I was in the mood last night and went overboard celebrating for no reason at all! must be because it was halloween's eve and so i got so hyper! I know it's really exaggerated come to think of it. Anyways, my head is thumping a little right now! And just like those sucky nights i texted him again! i dont really know why i do that to him and to myself! it's like i always come back to him when im not in my right senses! i must like the feeling..subconciously, i probably just want him back?! or maybe i just want to be noticed by him and make him realize what he's given up and that is- me.

 

I dont even know if ive affected him one way or another?! if texting him or whatever made any sense or what?! I really hope im not giving him the wrong signals by me texting him or reaching out to him. Well, I just find that I just can talk to him about interesting ideas that's why I come to him.

 

He probably doesn't have a clue anyway that I have thoughts of him all the time..and thats why i still keep on talking to him. Aaw I even do most of the texting and all that now.

 

The things is that I couldn't believe myself when i texted him last night saying for him to listen to this song because that song is my song for him! Stupid stupid stupid me..EARTH TO ME!! DO FRIENDS SAY THAT?!

 

 I want to text him again and take back what I said and tell him that I didnt mean for that to sound that I like him??!!!

 

I should just probably hide and not speak to him anymore..what now? im so embarassed..but i was just being true to myself...yikes. I really dont know where this will lead me to..or us.. even though there really is no "US"

 

Geez!! what else is there to do?!

Posted by nothere at 10:04 PM | HIT ME HARD!
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